Four years to recover life
Today I have come to start with my words.
Four years!
I've taken four years to get my life back.
Four years also lived to flee the prison.
Four years… In silence… Just… Leaving aside the life of the past… To understand the functioning of my different mind and to recompose my body.
So thanks to ARGIA, today I have come to denounce it with my words out loud.
"Salamarekun, good, bonjour à vous".
My name is Mikel. I'm a forest master of 48 years and 100 kilos. Seen from outside. Inside I see a child and a lot thinner.
Maybe we've been fellow travellers someday, at ikastola, at militancy, at a party, on the coast or on the mountain, who knows.
The word "prison" is known by many because we have interned it in our blood. I've come to talk about another prison. With a prison that's still taboo.
Maleruski, I have known for eighteen years this type of prison; believing the Chinese gods, I, helped by my family and friends; imposing 35,000 chemical pills on the body; once the electricity was placed in my brain, and others, keeping it tied in the bed of the room… Other kind of torture… The witches we were shooting in 1609, today silence like me.
Psychiatry tells me about institutions! And they have spoiled some of my life!
To do so, I had to extricate myself from my people of identity by carrying with me all the traumatisms that I had on my back. So I started working with other medicines to fix my life and rebirth.
The word "prison" is known by many because we have interned it in our blood. I've come to talk about another prison. With a prison still taboo
Four years ago, I sent a letter to the ten psychologists I had every October 15 and now to the new director of the hospital in Baiona to report their guilt. From the beginning they are playing with me in silence and in denial. At the moment I only fight, but I will not be silent. In the COVID-19 era, I tried to talk about this struggle with some Basque and French media, but with fear, it was very likely that this type of medicine would not be criticized. I took some like a crazy person or a complotist. That 18-year-old medicine that scares me, you can understand it, like many, with the disagreement of my imposition of vaccination. And what I want to add is that I don't put everything apart in that medicine.
Today I have come to dance with my actions.
I am still living in Gascuña. From time to time I approach Mount Larrun to see my friends who keep in touch, waiting for them to come to me. That's the relationship for me.
Today I have moved away from the way of life of the individual. I have no rentals, no personal cars, no health insurance, no employment contract. I don't want any more relationship with that human being, I recognize that I've come out of nowhere.
Today I prefer to live with Amalurra, simpler, far from stress, without coping with collectivities, moving with the bike, cultivating a vegetable garden daily, cooking seasonal and local meals in full time, and practicing alternative medicines: Shiatsu, osteopathy, T.R.E, E.M.D.R., and other practices are my baths. I will continue to live and many years, Prefect! I wish you counted with me those years!
Today, I've known that I'm hypersensitive and a virtue and I learn to be neuroatypical with some experts. I've realized that some of you are like this and that I'm not alone.
Today, I write my life experiences with a collective. In French, for the moment, and it does not bother me. If that language has hurt me, I now honor my SLAM. On the other hand, the Basque language is still my language of life.
I have also joined the circus, gymnastics and dance to maintain health. It may one day appear on a table.
Now I leave you with my last words.
I'm going to shut up with a thought to finish, so you can talk to your brain, if you want.
I have come to know the blackest fears of my interior, I have transformed my most deaf anger with movement and writings and my internal sorrows and now I cry as a source. Since I do all this and I do it, then yes, I have started to see a rainbow in my life thanks to rain and light.
If you're already at peace, better if you're still on your way, don't give in or stick to life, it's worth it. Experience says so!
Mikel Berasaluze Faivre
Bidali zure iritzi artikuluak iritzia@argia.eus helbide elektronikora
ARGIAk ez du zertan bat etorri artikuluen edukiarekin. Idatzien gehienezko luzera 4.500 karakterekoa da (espazioak barne). Idazkera aldetik gutxieneko zuzentasun bat beharrezkoa da: batetik, ARGIAk ezin du hartu zuzenketa sakona egiteko lanik; bestetik, egitekotan edukia nahi gabe aldatzeko arriskua dago. ARGIAk azaleko zuzenketak edo moldaketak egingo dizkie artikuluei, behar izanez gero.
The Spanish state would become the dystopian stage of Tejerazo, in 1981. There, the political leaders confined to Congress were "invited" to approve a tacit agreement in which the status quo linked to the monarchic system, the bipartisan political system (establishment of closed... [+]
The new government formation has left many unanswered questions, but it is clear that once again we will have to be firm in betting on the Basque Public School. We were told that, although the same party will govern, we would have new faces, but that has not been entirely true... [+]
We are parents of Euskal Herria, daughters and sons; they are called Maddi, Izei, Dani, Alaitz, Aida or BEÑAT, but they may be Hatem Salem, Awad Muhammad 14 years old, Zakaria Magdy 6 years old or Nour Ahmed 7 years old. They were all killed by Israel in Gaza.
We can't imagine... [+]
After the post-election negotiation phase, PNV and PSE-EE have laid the groundwork for a government agreement between the two to “advance welfare, progress, self-government and transformation of the global Euskadi”. An 11-page document details the commitments and activities... [+]
When we talk publicly about torture, we realize how much society embraces the opinion that the “system” itself puts into effect on this issue. It uses a wide range of ministers and advisers, judges and experts, all with the help of the organic media, of course. And it has to... [+]
If Valeria Vitella, who 2000 years ago offered an altar stone to the Basque goddess Larrahe, raised his head and found himself face to face with Alberto Santana, what would he say? Surely something like this: "What are you talking about?"
First of all, let us look at it. As a... [+]
In recent times we have had in the media Aitor Uriarte, representative of the renewable energy company Solaria, to pay tribute to the benefits of the macro-projects they want to carry out. In the case of the appearance of Radio Euskadi on May 28, I felt a deep shame of the... [+]
The new word that we have heard in recent years: delay. I suspect that there will be changes in place. I only know that of Bilbao, and it seems very simple: those of us who are of an age, we have named ourselves the name of what we did the first night, that is, and, in short, do... [+]
In prisons dependent on the Basque Government, Basque political prisoners have lost a great deal in terms of communication with our family and friends. The number of monthly prefixes is lower and their duration is shorter. So, even if we get closer, we devote less time to the... [+]
For decades, Mecaner has been an industrial reference in our region. Faced with the decision to relocate production, close the factory and lay off all the workers, those of us who have stood in favour of the eco-social alternative have worked together to deal with the... [+]