When I have to fill a blank sheet with characters, I spend days reflecting on different subjects, sharing several headlines with those around me to measure how my thermometer is out of my mind. It gives me the opportunity to see from the outside what I think, to rage on issues I couldn't imagine. But sometimes some issues lock me in my head. Mosquitoes fly with the same thoughts as if they were locked in the glass bottle, hitting the walls of the two hemispheres of the head. So I have only to talk about issues that for some seem repetitive. Yes, I speak again of male violence. How heavy, no?

I return to the facts of these months. Every time there is new news of male violence, I remember those that have expired on the agenda, I cannot understand them in isolation, distribute them. In the middle of the election campaign, a man shot his former partner in the streets of Orio. In a few days, a man killed vitorian Maialen in his own city and the child spent hours looking at his mother's body. I was pregnant. But then everything also advanced, because neither the maximum expression of male violence is enough news, to put everything upside down, to itch, to keep in the front line some speeches beyond curiosity. Moreover, the Security Advisor said that "it is not easy to protect a victim who is not perceived at risk." Maialen first denounced her partner and had a removal order. Should we be killed to be protected?

With the blank sheet in front of me, I cannot go ahead with the three massacred aggressions reported in my village in a single week. Have to close the txoznas of the Rochapea. Tudela. Legorreta. Victims who appear in the documentary on the case of Kote Cabezudo on their behalf and who do not appear. We're told there's an external wolf, but no, it's not an external wolf, what happens is that we live in the wolves regime: a patriarchal system that allows and normalizes all of this.

I'd like to not be heavy, not feel the mosquitos locked every time I have a white leaf in the two cerebral hemispheres, in the body. Write about something else. I would like to see some indication of responsibility being forgotten in the men's bar interviews. Therefore, as long as they give us reasons to be heavy, we will remain the heaviest. I don't know more, but I have white pages left.