Sometimes I don't know to what extent capitalism and I have come together in some suffering of destruction. The things that were given to us and that were not optional seemed suffocating, because they prevented change, the decision.

The family, for example, as it is designed, seemed to me to be the opposite of any transformation, repository of conservative values, which based the success of breeding on assimilation. But in the end it was not atomized by a revolution that would lead us to the salvation of all. We have not changed the collective, it has led us to have at least three houses in a nuclear family of four (each of yours), to ask for mortgages to pay for those houses, to work each with their salary.

The crews are too fixed, even though couples are too fixed, like religion and nation. So far the pseudo-incidents with capitalism and not the totals. But also jobs, better flexible ones, have told us, better passengers, better if they're not monotonous, better if you don't know where you're going to be tomorrow. Your life is also better if it's an adventure. And I'm already feeling totally detached from the goals. The State too, which can decide on our part, is an obstacle in the end.

And now, when everything has been atomized, but nothing has been built, not for everyone, especially for those who do not need it, the decision has not gained any space. Only because nothing is decided, only because survival requires great obedience. And we'll also be exploiting the last remains that seem to be facts and contrary to the decision: health, education -- to choose the health center, how can you deny the right to choose school, right?

And from age we realized that happiness was not in adventure, but in pleasant routines, that the other was uncertainty and anxiety; that happiness was not a visualizing decision, that it was more collective security. Now loneliness is suffocating, not the necessary to read, but the one that leaves us without a bridge to cross the river.