I was happy until you convinced me that there was no happiness. Every time I said I was happy, no one believed me. I began to say that I was happy, and I was immediately confronted with disgrace. What did you take this time to fool around?
Say it if you get caught up in it. What lies will you tell us? That's how they pricked me. It is also impossible to believe that man can be happy. I was happy, yes, but my loneliness was as great as my happiness. I was very lonely, like a person who is totally crazy or free. And the fact that you live with happiness alone and insane or free does not have any grace. Happiness was an unbearable outrage. It was annoying to me no more. It was up to me to decide whether or not to go with happiness. Then I began to talk about my depression, my sadness, my lack of happiness in the four corners, and everyone believed me: I did everything I could to make sunlight or storm outside to always be angry at the weather, especially on Sundays; I threw all the colourful clothes out of my wardrobe, I began to dress in black on all the initiatives of my life, especially on birthdays; I looked with hatred at the salsa dancing courses, especially on Sundays, to show me that I was in the dark scene, I didn’t even agree with the fact that I was pregnant, with the number of friends and friends, the Basque poetry, I liked it.
What a pleasure to be able to explain my misery, what a great pleasure. How happy I was when I talked to people about my disastrous life, how happy I was, and how happy they were, when they heard me as bewitched, delighted, with the intense attention of the psychoanalyst. Happy years to them! It was my vocation to be a really sad guy. And so I have been, to this day. But the time is gone, go! Nothing has changed in the area, but I have. Now listen to my confession, my cry: I'm exhausted! I'm so bored! I'm sick of it! Because of the forty years I've spent on unhappiness! It's a little bit more! That's enough of that! It is true, I confess, not socialist, not capitalist, not fascist, not communist, not Hindu, not Muslim, not Christian, I have decided to be happy now and here, and there is nothing in the world that will make me back in my decision! Can you hear me? Don't expect me to overturn my decision! Sad partners of all civilizations, societies, churches, associations, political parties that forbid me to be happy, do you want to give me joy? Fuck you! Fuck you!