As she has trouble absorbing food well, Maddi moves from one nutritionist to another. He generally realizes that he has had a very bad experience. Maddi is a name invented because it makes him hard to talk about what has happened and only because his relatives know him.

"Five years ago I started having energy problems, I was very tired and I almost didn't leave the house," he says. She still doesn't know very well why, but because she doesn't absorb food well, Maddi suffers from a lack of vitamins and anemia. Because he did not find a solution through the doctor, he decided to go to a private nutritionist.

He says the first session was "very hard": "At first I told him that my goal was to get back energized, but he didn't take much notice of me and asked me to undress and weigh immediately." She notes that from there she felt "very uncomfortable": "He told me he was too thick and told me he had to lose weight." To do so, he prepared a "demanding" diet.

Months later he returned to the clinic and the nutritionist asked him how he felt: "The truth is, I don't know why very well, but energetically it was very good. So I told her I wanted to do things I like again." The nutritionist asked him again to undress and weigh: "Despite being better in health, he told me I didn't get better because I didn't lose weight, but my goal wasn't that." Then, the nutritionist changed diet to a “much more demanding” diet.

Until then Maddi felt “very good” with his body and did not attach much importance to thickening or thinning. However, from that date he begins to worry about the physique: "At first I said I followed the diet because I was healthier and had more energy, but then I've seen that this factor had a lot of influence on me and since then I wanted to constantly slimmer and develop a eating disorder."

He had a couple more consultations with this nutritionist, but decided to leave them after a year: "I started managing with food the anxiety that the nutritionist produced to me." So the nutritionist followed on his own the things he had been told and the content he found on the Internet: "I knew the theory very well, but yet I fell into the trap of locophobia."

He has tried many nutritionists, but has denounced that they generally have similar attitudes: "Although sometimes they try to conceal, your goal is always that you lose weight." He added that many questions were missing during the first consultations: "They don't ask me how I feel when I like, how emotions influence my diet, what habits I have, whether I want to weigh or not, whether I'm afraid of some food and many more things."

Although in some consultations some nutritionists have placed more interest in the emotional realm, he believes that from the second session they focus "much" on weight: "I was once very happy with a nutritionist who asked me a lot of questions related to consumption habits, but from the second session his only interest was to lose weight."

So she decides she doesn't want to know anything about nutritionists. It's been a few years since she made that decision, and today Maddi's goal is to work her relationship with food and change her eating habits: "I'm taking steps to live quieter thanks to the help of my friends and the psychologist."