After seven months, Zabarte says that he often hurts his head, that he loses balance, that he cannot think, that the world falls on him. "It seems to me that I have a long way to go to be what I have always been and that I wanted to be," he added. He added that discharge from neurosurgery is "good news", but he added that the symptoms will follow him for a long time and that he still has "limitations".

"There may be life-long sequelae, but you don't know, because there has been little time for a case like the serious injury I've suffered, at risk of death. They don't tell me because you don't know, but they may get more mentally and physically tired, that the headache is forever, that when you talk, there are some problems from time to time. I've forgotten a few words I knew, and often I dive... I don't know how far I'm going.

Detonation

"As I was in the middle of the road, I started running towards a mole," Zabarte remembers. "At the time I heard a detonation and fell automatically on the ground. I heard the detonation very clearly. I didn't see a fight in the place I was in, people started running with me, people were walking with children, there were adults ... There was nothing to indicate that there was an altercation: no insults, no screams, nothing... If they had been, they would not have looked for coverage there [Zabarte kept the entry for the game on the mobile phone and departed a little from the stadium because he could not download the QR]. I heard it explode, I remember my fall, and as an explosion hits you, I was shocked by the noise of the whistle in my ear and it hurt me horribly.

One of the noises that Zabarte has in his head is that of detonation. The other is the police. "The detonation and the noise of the boots impacted me. So when I was in the hospital, I told Joseba: "They've passed over me, but they've dodged me. After hearing the detonation, he reported that he fell "automatically". "Everything happened in a second, detonation, fall and explosion in the ear, whistling, I didn't hear anything. I was perplexed, but I was sure I had been given a punch. Because when I saw them coming in line, there was no one. I saw clearly the two rows of ertzainas, it was obvious that there was a detonation and a ball had been thrown at me."

"Nobody's ever talked to me."

Zabarte spoke for a long time in the News Journal of Gipuzkoa about his passage through the hospital and his stay in the hospital. "I was crying, and I felt like I didn't understand anything, I didn't understand what was going on, that I had become dumb. Today I still have that feeling sometimes, I feel silly. "Before it was more clear-cut," he said.

No one came to see her at the hospital. "Not someone from the Ertzaintza, not politicians... I really didn't expect it. I expected a forensic doctor to come because when I left the ICU, I knew there was a complaint, but nobody came to see me."

Media pressure

"I was offended by what Erkoreka said (he said the Ertzaines charged him because there were people who were throwing stones, bottles and other objects, but the images showed that they had only been thrown a bottle when the load started). The media pressed, otherwise I was not called Internal Affairs. At the time of the meeting, it was extended for three hours. In the video they showed me, you couldn't see anything. It started when they were running a few meters and I was already on the ground. And the images are blurry. I was surprised that the images from the videos we got were clearer. I had the feeling that they were trying to write a story in my mouth, but that was not what I had experienced: I'm telling you that I saw them running, I heard an explosion ... I didn't tell them that I'd been kicked, of course, because I don't remember a few things, but the boots went through my head. When you have a brain hemorrhage, you don't remember some details, as normal."

"I didn't understand anything," says Zabarte. "They seem to be cutting and blurring the images to match the story they're telling, but that's not what I'm telling you. And all of this I'm telling you, I've also told the doctors, the doctors... They're my experiences. What they count does not correspond to my reality. It all happened very quickly. There's no object that can go so fast, except a foam bullet. For them, what has happened to me does not go from two lines in a three-leaf state.